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| I am attending MNU and getting a Masters of Arts in Counseling. I am engaged, and the wedding planning has just begun. I am working at Trolley's Bar and Grille, Overland Park. I live in Overland Park. My feelings on those things? Busy, Tired, Overwhelmed, Overjoyed, Compitent, Stressed, Happy, Frustrated, Angry, Elated. Peace and Love, Cole | | |
| I am engaged and I love her. I will spend the rest of my life with Aubree Caston. I am waiting on my grad school letter to return. It will tell me whether or not I can begin my life. My grandmother just died. I never thought about them being gone. I can't wait to live my life. Peace and Love, Cole | | |
| I am in love with Aubree and I want to marry her. That I know for certain. However, there are just days in which I just don't want her around. Or anyone for that matter. What's going on with me? I'm so confused. I can't wait to get to grad school. Peace and Love, Cole | | |
| Sorry, had to throw a shout-out to Neil. I have been well and healthy and relatively happy the last few months. Summer group went well. And by well I mean that none of the kids in the group died or ran away. We are in the school now, which means better communication with teachers and less chance of my boss just dropping by. It is nice to be a part of the educational part of these kids lives, as this is where they seem to struggle the most. Now I just have to get back into school myself. I'm thinking that next May I will be reaching about two years at this job, and that is all I can handle. I will be applying to grad schools and trying to get my masters in counseling. It is what I want to do, and I can specialize once I start going for my doctorate. I'm thinking child counseling or sports/performance counseling are the two fields that interest me the most. It will be nice to get back into the school feel of things and to not have to worry about all the red tape that comes with an entry level (bottom of the totem pole) job. I am enjoying what I'm doing and it is great experience, but it is not what I want to do with my life. Aubree and I have been running into some snags lately. I haven't been completely honest with her about my smoking and it has come back to bite me in the butt. I have decided to give Chantix another try, and with the support from her, my family and my friends, I should be able to kick the habit for good. Not only is my health an issue (duh, I had cancer. How stupid could I be?), but it is expensive, makes me smell bad, and I hate myself for doing it. We have also been fighting about trust issues (me not being honest doesn't help). She has been burned in the past, as have I, but she seems to struggle with trusting me more than I would expect. It's something she can work on and I can help her. I am looking forward to this long weekend just for the fact that it is a long weekend. I get to sleep in and not worry so much about things. Hopefully Aubree and I can have a successful and relaxing weekend by the lake. Now if only my parents wouldn't be there to add stress to the situation. That's all for now. Please let me know if you're still out there in Xangaland. Peace and Love, Cole | | |
| I feel like these are the major phases of my life in a nutshell. I'll call it: Cole's Life; Cliffnotes Version - Born, cute kid, good student, lots of friends at Linn.
- Moved, summer of Devlin, street hockey, cigarette butts.
- Moved, new kid at a new school, perfect student, violin, 4-H.
- Middle school, akward, perfect student, lots of friend, violin, gifted, Auburn.
- High school, perfect student, Auburn, football, baseball, 2 girlfriends, choir, Church Camp, Youth Group, chew.
- 1/4 College, good student, lots of partying, 0 girlfirends, choir, theatre, Kappa Sigma, cigarettes.
CANCER, SURGERY - 1/4 College, okay student, lots more partying, Kappa Sigma, 1 girlfriend, choir, theatre, cigarettes.
CANCER, CHEMOTHERAPY - 1/2 College, passable student, way too much more partying, Kappa Sigma, 2 girlfriends, choir, theatre, cigarettes.
- 1/60 of the rest of my life, new job, lots of partying, lots of friends, living with best friend, cigarettes.
CANCER, SURGERY It looks wierd when you portion it out like that but I do believe that these years are the major phases in my life. These last few have been a little tough but I think some of the next phases will be much better. Cutting down on the partying and cigarettes has already begun. I'm still loving my job and I've met a girl that I'm falling for. That seems to happen to me. I go in cycles. Fall for a girl, use a girl. Fall for a girl, use a girl. I'm a douche sometimes and those of you who are reading this know that. I'm sorry. There's no other way to say it. I don't like it but that's my pattern. I hope this lastest one will put an end to that cycle. I don't know, we will have to see. Going to start applying to grad schools. I think I've gotten alot of good experience where I'm at. However, I feel that if I don't start moving now, I will become very comfortable with my current path. I'm having alot of fun, but it's getting time to be a grown up. Sucks, but everbody has to grow up sometime. Okay, so I'm starting to ramble and I don't mean to. If anyone actually read all of this, may God have mercy on your soul. And get a life. Or just leave me a comment. Peace and Love,
Cole | | |
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